Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Frances (Cookie) Kelly


My father Bob Kelly, mother Cookie Kelly, and family friend Johnny See

I lost my mother on April 19. I thought I knew what sad was. Turns out I never really felt sadness. Not quality sadness. I’ve felt depressed, down, anxious, worried, horrified, sorry, and bad. But now I know I’ve never really felt sad. Until now.

21 comments:

Grey Horse Matters said...

My sympathies. Your mom will always be close because she will be with you in your heart. Try and remember all the good times.

Chris said...

I'm so very sorry for your loss.

Giulia said...

I know what that sadness feels like. My mother died some 16 plus year ago and I just moo-ed like the "bawling calves" I just learned about who were mooing around here. I went around with a chest full of agony braying "Maaaaaa...Maaaaaa...Maaaaa." And having now heard these bawling calves - well, it's the same sound. I'm sorry for your loss, my friend. But please, get back on the non smoking wagon. There are ALWAYS gonna be excuses. ALWAYS. That's the nature of the beast.

Tammy said...

I'm so sorry, Debi. Peace to you and your family. My heart aches for you.

Gilly said...

Cyber hug coming your way ((((hug))))

I feel for you. Take your time to grieve, do it your way, and don't take any notice of anybody who says "you ought..."

One day the sun will shine again for you. Honest!

Cape Coop said...

I'm so sorry Deb. It isn't fair, it isn't the right time, it isn't good in any way. I'm here for you- just send me a note in the ether of the interwebs.
Rebecca

Rural Rambler said...

Deb I am so dang sorry. You have been on my mind and you have been so quiet I just knew something was up. I will be holding you and your family close to my heart. Please if you feel up to it send me an email. I'd be sending one to you but I have lost your email addy somehow. I know the unbearable sad you speak of. I lost my Mom way too early to cancer, I still miss her more than my heart can take. She pops in my mind pretty much every hour of everyday. She was a character and loved life so much. It sucked. It wasn't fair. It changed my life.

Take care Deb and know that I am thinking bout you more than you know.

Beth said...

I was so sorry to hear of your loss, Debi. It is so very difficult to lose your mother. As I mentioned to you earlier, my mama died almost 25 years ago, but my heart still aches for her. And my heart aches for you, my friend. I'll be thinking of you in the coming days. God bless.

Beth

Sweet Virginia Breeze said...

I am so sorry Debi. This is one of the hardest things you will ever have to face, but you will survive it. Just know that there are people who care about you and are holding you in their thoughts. (((Hugs to you)))

Anonymous said...

Debi...there are no words ...this from a writer?
Stuck with fingers perched above the keyboard...
sending love your way..stay strong for your daughter, its too hard to stay tough for yourself just now.

sweetflutterbys3 said...

I'm so sorry Debi. My heart aches for you. Your mother was so beautiful and with what you have told us about her, I have no doubt she was a wonderful person. I will pray your sorrow turns into only sweet and wonderful memories of what you and your mom shared.

I'll be thinking of you.

Gail said...

I do know. My mother is gone. I also know there are no words I can say that will help.

I am sorry for your loss.

Greener Pastures--A City Girl Goes Country said...

I can't tell you, my friends, how much your words bring comfort to my heart.

Jocelyn said...

I am so very sorry for your loss.
My husband lost his Mom suddenly and without warning last August. I can't imagine his or your heartbreak.

I wish you peace and fewer tears , hand in there.

God Bless you and your family

Snappy Di said...

Have been thinking about you every day. You are exactly right about the sadness felt when losing a parent. They are the people that we first lay eyes on when we are born... they know us best.

Your mom was a beauty, Debi.

Di

Amy Tate said...

Oh Debbie, I am so sorry. I can't believe how much you look like her in that picture - it's as if you're twins! I will be praying for you, girl!

Laughing Orca Ranch said...

(((((((((((hugs))))))))))))

~Lisa

Jeff said...

We think we are prepared for it, but we aren't. One day, the sun will shine again and you will be a better person for having gone through this ordeal. Take your time and be good to yourself, Debi.

Leonora said...

Debi, I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that I am thinking of you and praying for you to be comforted.
All of the wonderful qualities your mother gave to you, you will pass to your daughter.

gingerhillery@mac.com said...

Big hug.

Going Crunchy said...

Peace and thoughts for you. I lost my dad when Lio was only 4 months old - so about 6 years ago. I takes a long, long time to be o.k. with it.